Ok, so I’ve learnt something new recently. I realised that being healed isn’t as straightforward as it might seem. It’s not, “Lord, please heal me” – being healed – “thank you” – end of. I have discovered that after you have been healed you have to consciously walk in your healing.
I shouldn’t be surprised really as the Christian journey is about faith from beginning to end. So for me, walking in my healing means two main things.
Firstly, it means disciplining my mind. While not losing all the invaluable lessons I learned through my brush with the Big C, I know that I need to stop my mind from going to unhelpful places. So it’s alright to have a healthy awareness of the transient nature of life and the need to make the most of each day as a gift from God, but it’s not OK to let my mind dwell in imagined scenarios that are no longer the case. I’ve got to work with the reality of what the Lord has done, and continue to have the same faith I had when I asked for His healing in the first place. This is of course is easier said than done, but I do tick myself off when unhelpful thoughts occur and remind myself the Lord has healed me and it is wonderful.
Walking in my healing also means making decisions on the basis of continued confidence in the healing I have been granted, rather than thinking maybe I should wait and see. To wait and see would be to doubt the healing. I already have two clear scans under my belt, so what would I be waiting for! I need to act in faith, being confident of what is unseen – Hebrews 11:1.
It still amazes me that I have been healed after being referred for palliative care last year. (I de-referred myself – another important act of walking in my healing.) But from now on it’s, “Thank you, Lord, for healing me,” and getting on with the life of faith with an extra bounce in my step because all these “extra days” feel like such a bonus!
Mark Wickenden, Minister